I think, over the course of many years--I have about twenty posts that start with "so tired". I actually am very very tired, and between the whole doctor thing and school, I have very little reserve. Little things set me off.
I suffer from pride. No joke. I have an ego--hmm, maybe not an ego, but when I let loose and bounce off the ceiling, screaming and ranting about things that nobody in their right mind (Hailey probably excepted, lol) would even have a smidgen of interest in at the time, I'm five parts manic and five parts scary. I've spent a very long time trying to be...I dunno, me?
And sometimes I want to be me so much, I get that whole pride thing spinning like a gas generator and I'm running flat out for, what--I don't know.
I wasn't very nice today. Too much of my old personality came back, although I think it's a result of my small group class. I'm OCD, what can I say? I see the team. The team isn't working. I want to get everyone pointed in the right direction. I...needed to let go. I wanted to shine in English, even though I know I suck--and in letting go, I found my center.
If I could only fix my Excel class in the same way. *sigh*