Friday, January 4, 2008

When I grow up...

In Bujold's Vorkosigan series, there's this part in Barrayar where Cordelia finally realizes she has to do something, and she says--"I'm tired of playing wall."

I'm tired of playing wall, of slamming myself up against the bricks, over and over again. I'm getting up in years--okay, maybe not that up, it's a figure of speech--and I can keep doing what I do, or take a chance on something I want to do.

I write.

Over the years I've come to realize that people define themselves by their jobs, "oh, I'm a this," or "oh, I'm a that." I fought the writer label for a long time. People said, "so what do you do?" and I said, "I flip burgers." Which is not really what I do, but it stops questioners dead--like flipping burgers is any less of a job than when I sold books. One is dirty and greasy, and the other is nice and rarefied, but dirty jobs pay more and uniforms are provided. 'sides, people pay to pretend-cook. I get paid, and my chef-coat is real.

I usually get a second job to fund my trip out to WA, but this year I've decided to invest the time back into my writing. I'm not the best writer, nor am I the fastest. And I'll be the first to admit I'm still learning. But my learning curve is incredibly sharp--in other words, me and training...we get along.

I'd like to be an editor.

I want there to be a time when I can stop working and do "writer" things. I want to live in other worlds and go places--even if it's in someone else's head. lol--I want to be Leslie Wainger...

...but I'll settle for Anne Groell. I have an interview Monday. Wish me luck.


Unhinged said...

To be an editor???


Alice Audrey said...

Double luck!

Kaige said...

Sending lots of wishes for luck your way!

Jennifer McKenzie said...

Honestly, I think you'd make a GREAT editor. I just wish I'd had the guts to ask you to be a crit partner first. LOL.
Now you'll probably be the editor of one of my books.
I know what you mean. Completely.

Leslie said...

LOL! Being me is fun - for me - but I think you make a great you.

Good luck with the interview. :-)

jodi said...

OMG OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leslie Wainger commented on MY blog. I think I'm gonna roll over and DIE!!!!! Thank you thank you thank you.

And thank you to everyone else who commented. I want this so much, I can taste it.

Jen--one day I might BE your editor. You never know. Right now, I'm your friend. The two aren't mutually exclusive...